Well,it's been a while,and i've decided to update my journal. I've been busy staying after school working backstage for a play lately,and i've been out and about, not really able to check DevArt, so yeah...I was thinking the other day how much i've changed in the course of a year, and it's scaring me. Last year i was "straight edge", as i liked to call myself. This year, I'm anything but. I've done some things and tried some drugs. I've drank and made huge mistakes, and have learned to regret some things i've done. Last year, i lived with no regrets, and promised myself that i never would. Now, i'm not so sure. Last year, i was madly in love, but still dated other people to take my mind away from the pain of losing that person. This year, in the past few months,i've gotten completely over from that person, and moved on. It's weird how you can love someone, then they let you go,but you still think about them every day, even when you move on. They're still at the back of your mind. Butttt, I'm pretty sure i've found someone worth sticking with. I've been with him for over 2 months and i can't imagine what it'd be like if something were to happen to us. I feel like i'm going to screw it up, though, because my heart's pushing me to tell him 3 very important words, and i know for a fact that he doesn't feel the same. Oh well. That's life for ya.